I have felt more or less paralyzed with ennui the past couple of days. After seeing that the house is tidied, the dishes done, Grandpa fed, and Ozzie walked, I find myself feeling at loose ends and terribly tired. Maybe it is the let down of having my son and his fiance return to Ireland. I don't know. All I can say is that nothing seems very exciting or worth doing. Yesterday I mentioned heavy napping--that is still going on! Hoping I am not sick, and that this will pass.
One thing that will help me perk up big time is the arrival of the cabinetry for my quilting studio. Yes, the cabinets have been ordered! I got a message that they will be shipped on Feb. 16th. So, after maybe a week of travel time, and a week to arrange for their installation, I could be out there in the studio unpacking my boxes of fabric and quilting supplies.
Can you believe I packed up my passion last June? June. And it is still boxed up. Oh, I have rummaged a bit, and dug out some essentials, but for the most part, all my quilt related belongings (and the majority of my quilts) have been taped up in boxes, stacked in neat rows in my garage. For eight months. Most of a year. No wonder I am losing my mind.
I wandered down to the studio yesterday afternoon in hopes I would get that "feeling". You know, that feeling you get when you fondle your fabric, glance through some favorite quilting books, dream of future projects. It didn't happen. It made me realize how visual I am, and how so much of my inspiration comes from looking through my quilting magazines and special books. "Oh, yes!", I think, "I have always meant to make that pattern! Mustn't forget that one". I am craving a good browse through my Kim Diehl books. And the dictionary of quilt blocks by Judy Hopkins, with her measurements to make them in all sorts of different sizes. I miss sitting in my sewing room, quilt book in hand, stacks of fabric and bundles in plain view. "Oh, my gosh, how great would this pattern look with the new Blackbird Designs collection!" "I really must join this applique block of the month program". "How cute would that bag pattern be made up in that Fig Tree (Kate Spain, Bonnie and Camille, Sweetwater, etc, etc) group!"
That just hasn't been happening and I miss it so much. For the first time in my life I feel disconnected from my quilting. I know I will get the feeling back, especially once my space is sorted out. But right now I sure do have the blahs!