
My mom was some kind of lamp genius. She could make a lamp out of anything, I kid you not. The lamp above was from a tea canister she picked up somewhere. She made many a lamp in her day, and as they say, they broke the mold when she passed away. Mom was unique in so many ways--a true character. Full of life, very creative, full of opinions, generous to a fault, often feisty, loyal to her family without reservation. I miss her so much. If Shirleyann loved you, you had an advocate who would fight 'til her last breath for you.
Mom's been gone for an unthinkable eight years. How could our family have continued to live and breathe and eat and see the dawn of another day without her light in it? Somehow we have managed to go on without our matriarch. Eight years. My gosh, how can that be? I dream of her often, quite vividly. She appears in my dreams, sometimes she speaks, usually she doesn't. She is merely present. For the first few years after she died, in my dreams, she would have left us for another family that she loved as much, or more than she did us. Otherwise, why would she leave? I know, how crazy. I would be so angry with her in my dreams. It was quite awful when I woke up. I would want to rail and cry, "Mom! Why did you leave us? How could you?" Over time, my dreams have changed, and I welcome her into them with delight. She is there, she contributes, she continues to support. I wake up now, and think "Thank you for visiting me Mom. I miss you and it is so nice to spend a little time with you, even in my dreams".
In my most recent dream, she visited all my sisters and I. We were all sitting in front of a roaring fireplace, with the sound of the ocean in the background. All of us were wearing Eileen West white nightgowns, including Mom. We sat by the fire, glasses of wine in hand and got all caught up on each others news. Just like old times. When I awoke, I was sad to say good bye to her, and to yet again realize that this would be another day without her in the future of my life on earth. Yet, I had to admit, she is with me all time, in the beautiful faces and characters of my dear sisters, daughter, and nieces. Mom lives on in all of us, and in my memories and my dreams.
I meant this to be a post on lamps, forgive me. Sometimes we just need to let digressions happen.
